God sent me a trial, and at first I thought it meant that God didn’t love me, that his will was different, but he doesn’t ask for our opinion or explain himself when he sends us something that’s good for us.… He’ll handle doing the work without consulting us. All we have to do is let ourselves be shaped in his hands, and hold still, very still; later, the time and light he has sent us will allow us to see his work clearly, and then we will give him infinite thanks for his loving care. How many tears must be shed before one is willing to kiss the cross!

I gave myself to the Lord generously, but I still wasn’t giving him everything; I still held on to one thing.